The fear of withdrawal, I believe, is what keeps me where I am. Sure, my primary care provider would be happy to help me with she calls "comfort meds" if I decide to take the steps to nothing, but how far is she willing to go with comfort is in the back of my mind.
I've been in therapy, groups and I see a psychiatrist. I've done this for the last 14 years. My whole recovery. I've learned to do things different, manage my anger better and cope in different ways, so I am not really afraid of that part of my life. It always leads back to withdrawal. How long will it be? How will I function? Can I even function? Not a road I want to do down.
Being tied to a medication really does suck. Planning a life around 14 days sucks. If they can come up with a medication like Suboxone. Ok, maybe not the medication itself. A program like Suboxone, then why can't they allow people who take Methadone the same freedom?
I mean really, most people who are on Suboxone start out by visiting their doctor or clinic a couple maybe three times a week in the beginning, but that doesn't last long. Soon after starting, patients are allowed to take their prescriptions to a pharmacy once a month.
Methadone patients should be allowed the same.
You can really, as long as you are able to find a provider that is linked to a program, you are able to have your meds prescribed. But where do you find someone like that? They don't exactly advertise their services in the Yellow Pages.
I apologize for the rant. It is a subject that I've never really understood, I don't think I ever will. It just doesn't make sense.
I do want you to know that you're not alone. Anytime that you feel like venting, thinking or even just rambling. You are more than welcome to come here and let it out.
"I will let yesterday end so that today can begin"
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