Hi miss D,
I know this post is old, But I just read it. I hope everything is going ok for you??
I didnt understand if you were still using or on methadone or both.
I just know for me both doesnt work, your either in recovery or your using.
Ive been clean off of heroin for 5 years. You need to find the right dose of methadone, and
work your recovery. It will all fall into place, keep your head up, go to meetings , talk to other addicts,
It does work, all of those things together.
Much love,, Peace