Please meet cathy joan and offer up some feedback

Good morning,
One of our newest members could really use some feedback from out other forum members. I told her I would post her story in the hopes that someone could identify with how she is feeling and offer up some of their experience along with some of that great support you are all known for.



I have been on methadone for 20 plus years. And I have a love hate relationship with it. Currently I am in the process of detoxing and I am so scared..but I cant afford it anymore..I am at a clinic in wisconsin...the rules sucks..if I want to go back up to feel better during my detox I have to come everyday for a week..I cant do that cos of my job and the hours they have.. so then I have to feel like crap until I adjust to the lower dose..I only come once every two weeks now..over all its a good clinic...I want to try to find a doctor who can prescribe me methadone cause its so much cheaper..I pay $200.00 every other week..add that up for over 20 years.I hate the way I feel now, this dose does not hold me..but I'm trying to be strong

Methadone has such a bad rap..but it saved my life I am 56 years old started drugs at 14,in and out of treaments nothing worked..,but since I've been on the program i have been able to hold a job..[12 years so far] thats the longest for me ever..I dont break the law, do home health for handicap people, attend bible study and church,I havent had to steal. I no longer rob pharmacys, scam doctors, forge scripts, or take any kind of narcotic pain pills even if I had surgery or have lots of pain from my arm injury.I just deal with the pain cause I'm to afraid if I take 1, I will want 2 then 3 and on and on.. so I just dont temp myself.

Any feedback would be appreciated.